My life is so not depressing, but depressing?

Well when I was 1-11 I was so happy. Everything was so slow goin and I was happy. Now I'm 13 although its not what my profile says. But lately I've been very depressed not clinically just not happy. It's not hormones or anything. I wrote this thing once and it got deleted so I'm winging it I used to make As and Bs now a couple of As and Bs the rest is Cs and Ds I hate school now partially because I was tossed in a Catholic school for a better education in the city I hate the city and everything is so fast its like the world spinning circles around me and I cant get out and back into the country i just cant get out my mom wont send me back to my regular school because she thinks I'm just trying to get out of the school but's really not the reason I told her the reason she just doesnt believe me or doesnt care for the sake of my education I just cant get out im stuck in this crazy world its like a drag race I swear i could get used to it but it'll just make me feel worse because I want to be me and I'm not happy there its like hell i cant find my niche there some people will say you'll get over it but i've spent 2.2 years trying to and it isnt working whats so ever I have the right to be happy and its like going to this school I never get to do the things i liked to do my parents dont know this but i started smoking then quit it only made me feel worse and I was so depressed I know where I'm happy and it's in the country I can feel these huge yearning for quiet creek or the blowing fields in the farm my friends would always tell eachother when I was in my old school there aint know better place then Owingsville the old crap town that know one knows about they call it the place between Morehead and Mt. Sterling. It maybe a hell hole to some people but to me I call it home no wait I call heaven its my version of heaven maybe God broke it off of heave attached it to earth but, I need help I NEED OUT i want to be me not no towny guy I don't have anything against them but I'm not one of them. I cant do what they do PLEASE HELP ME GET OUT i want a childhood I would want to remember PLEASE